Friday, January 21, 2011

Fallout

"SECOND SEMESTER SCHEDULES ARE HERE!" My Science teacher, Mrs. Raeson, called to everyone in first hour.

At AGPPA, they are starting a new thing, they change classes during the semester change.

I waltzed up and picked up my schedule and looked it over.

Here's what it said.

FIRST HOUR - SCIENCE - MRS. RAESON
SECOND HOUR - ENGLISH - MR. MILLFORD
THIRD HOUR - ART - MS. ANDRIANS
FOURTH HOUR - MATH - MRS. GREGORY
FIFTH HOUR - HISTORY - MRS. HODGE
SIXTH HOUR - SPANISH - MRS. WILAMZA


"Awesome!" I smiled, then folded up the paper and put it in my back pocket.

-THIRD HOUR-

I walked into Spanish, all smiles. I hoped, more than anything, that I had at least ONE with Nathan. Our relationship is kind of on the rocks now, and I know that having classes together will revive it.

"PEACH!" He smiled, greeting me at the door with a hug.
"NATE!" I smiled back, hugging him. Then I went to my seat and sat down.

"Give." I said, cutting to the chase.
He nodded and handed me his schedule, which I compared to with my own.

"No, no, no, no, no...." I muttered, sliding my finger down to the last class, silently hoping it said "Spanish."

"Math." I whispered to myself. I looked up at Nathan.

"So any classes?" He asked.
I shook my head.
"WHAT? This is an OUTRAGE! We should sue." He joked.
I fake-laughed, but my fake-laugh is very real. I could give Becca a run for her money at that whole 'Rising-Actress-Star' thing.

(Today was a half day.)

"See you all next semester! Also known as Monday!" Mrs. Wilamza smiled and sent us all on our way.

"Bye Prudence! See you in Math!" Nathan called out to me, I turned and waved to him, then went to my locker and spent fourth and fifth hour in complete heartbreak.

I made my way into Math Class, where all we did was turn in our homework and talk. As I was having a conversation with Nathan and my friend Alicia, I realized that this could be the last conversation we ever have.

Yes, we're going out, but not seeing him everyday might lead him to.......

Cheat.On.Me.


Before I knew it, the clock struck 11:14, and it was time to go home. I rushed out of the class room, holding back tears. I was halfway to my locker when I heard a voice calling out to me.

"PRUDENCE!"
I turned around and saw Nathan trying to catch up to me.
"Yeah?" I asked, hoping he would say that he changed to my math class.
"I changed classes!" He smiled.
I smiled, and REALLY smiled this time.
"Who do you have?" I asked.
"Mr. Mathins." He smiled.
My smile faded.
"oh." I whispered, I remembered that Rachel (his ex-girlfriend) was in that class.
"Well, I will talk to you on Monday, hopefully. Bye Prudence." He kissed my forehead, then headed off to his locker.
I walked to my locker with my head held down and got all of my stuff and began to exit the school.

I remembered the song Marisol was listening to by Michael Jackson.
How did it go? How?

"He's out of my life." I began to sing. The original song was called 'She's Out Of My Life' but I changed the words.
"He's out of my life." I repeated, with more emotion.
"And I Don't Know Whether To Laugh Or Cry." I shook my head, walking slowly.
"I Don't Know Whether To Live Or Die" I looked around, all of the smiling faces were mocking me.
"And It Cuts Like A Knife" I imitated a cutting motion with my hand while singing.
"He's Out Of My Life." A tear escaped my tear duct before I could stop it.

"It's Out Of My Hands
It's Out Of My Hands" I shook my head again.
"To Think For Three Months He Was Here." I changed the words again.
"And I Took Him For Granted I Was So Cavalier" I leaned up against a locker and stared at the ground while I sang.

"Now The Way That It Stands
He's Out Of My Hands" I pushed my hands into my coat pocket.

Then I started walking again.

"So I've Learned That Love's Not Possession." I passed two friends hugging.
"And I've Learned That Love Won't Wait." I passed a couple smiling at each other.
"Now I've Learned That Love Needs Expression." I nodded while singing.
"But I Learned Too Late." I slapped my forehead softly.

"He's Out Of My Life
He's Out Of My Life" I walked out of the doors and into the hustle and bustle of the parking lot.
"Danged Indecision And Cursed Pride." My voice intensified.
"Kept My Love For Him Locked Deep Inside" I got closer to where all of my sisters were in a little cluster.
"And It Cuts Like A Knife." I looked over to see a flash of jet black.

"He's Out Of My....." My voice cracked.

I spotted Nathan getting into his mom's car.



"Life." I finished, then walked over to my sisters.

"How Was Your Day?" Marisol asked me.
"Heartbreaking." I muttered as I watched the car drive away.

I've had people fall out of my life, but it seems like Nathan was yanked out.

**Peach..**

2 comments:

  1. awwww PRU! Nathan isnt out of your life! I bet he'll think of some kind of way so he could see you! This is crazy! Both Rebecca and you are having boyfriend problems! It will work out in the end! I know it WILL! :)

    ~Julie

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  2. this SUCKS>>>>
    AMBER! language!!!???!!!!???!!! but Julie is totally right

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